its been six days since i have seen you my blue diary. i missed writing down my sadness and concerns about my cousins...
my cousins are crying all the time, i knock but when i do they stop crying and do not answer. i wonder if they will ever be the same, im very hungry and bored from sitting in my room all day and all night except to do my lessons which are also very boring. my mother looks at me with disgust when i get D's in English. mother i simply do not understand it as much as you wish of me... im not sorry i disappoint you because i did nothing wrong i stated. '' your are rude and unlawful little witch and you will be an amazing peasant if only i let you but im a wonderful mother and i take pity on you'' she said grabbing my ear and throwing me to the ground. i heard my dress rip and tears filled my eyes as i smiled and shook off the dust, thank you mother for taking pity on me... since either you know it or not when you die. i will become something you would have forbidden i said spitting in her face. ''your cousins will take your place as my respectful daughters and you will be nothing but a forgotten royal blood child with no home and no love'' she said snapping her fingers as guards ripped my off my feet and threw me in my room roughly. i still shiver with fear at the moment when i was thrown.
im scared, what if my mother is behind my aunts death? what if my mother plans to poison me? what if she throws me in the dungeon? what if i die? these questions are swimming around my head... i must sleep goodnight blue diary.
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